Life feels absolutely crazy right now.

Last night, I experienced something demonic in my room and it scared me so much that I burst into tears and ran outside. I feel like all parts of my life are falling apart, hanging by threads and honestly I've never been so lost before. Satan keeps reminding me of all the failures in my life, parts that aren't working out, stupid decisions I make, sinfulness that I can't seem to get rid of. You know when you are trying to rid yourself of a particular sin, it consumes your life and rules over every action you make? Like I can't do anything normal because my pride is so overwhelming in the mornings. That kind of thing. I am also out of medication and have been for about a week. It's hard to get to the pharmacy without a car.





Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Oh lead me, lead me to the cross.

The cry of my heart right now.