I see His love and mercy, washing over all our sin.

I can't breathe...

God, this is a direct letter to You - please reach out to me in grace and listen to my prayer!

I am astounded. I want selfless faith in You. I am beginning to see it in my life. You have to shake me up for me to realize, really, how good You really are, how perfect is your timing, how wide and huge and abounding is Your love. I LOVE YOU! I want to love you with all my heart and soul and strength and mind. I want to know you so intimately I don't know where I end and where You begin. This week - this week you have shown Yourself to me in ways I didn't know were possible. In ways You never have before. You open my eyes. You cover me in grace and extend mercy to me. You challenge me to prompt change in me. I am growing to become more and more the woman You desire me to be... I am thankful. I am thankful You NEVER GIVE UP. I am thankful You are with me to the end of the ages. Till I am dead and gone and I have been lifted up to be in Your presence, for all of eternity. How sweet to be loved by You, to be cherished by You, as a Father loves His child. I don't deserve it. I deserve Your wrath that is as perfect as Your love is. Thank You for Your beloved Son that gave it up, all of it, for me on the cross! I can't say it enough! You bought me with a price, the price of Your Son... I am eternally grateful and in awe of what You have ordained and what You do and who You are. You encountered me in a saving way over a year ago and I was never the same! You speak to me in ways nothing else ever has or ever will. You have spoken to me in volumes this summer. You led me to Philly to reveal more of Yourself to me. To teach me. To mold my heart. To continue to perfect me in the image of Christ. To share Your love with this beautiful community. Lord, I am weak. I don't follow Your will all the time. I turn from You when I am tired, or in despair, or confused or frustrated. But You are always there when I realize my folly and turn back to You. You never forsake me. Father, judge me according to my deeds and may everything I do be done for You. May you look down upon me that day of judgement with pleasure, because of what I have done for Your glory and Your glory alone here on earth...

Amen.

So, right now is not really the time to explain my feelings behind this prayer. But I was prompted suddenly to write this. Maybe I'll expound later. Man, God is good.