This is possibly the worst movie I've seen. It's called "The Messengers" and it's on Lifetime - what more could I expect? It's dripping with melodramatism, stuttering lines and a crappy story line. Transition into the topic that's been on my mind a lot, especially today...

Criticism. I'm so critical. Christians are so critical too, I've noticed... I'm so tired of Christians calling others "idiots" or "brainless". Aren't we called to be different? How is a Christian calling Richard Dawkins a brainless idiot different than Bill Maher calling the Bible the "Jewish book of fairytales"? I've seen and heard it a lot today and it's discouraging.

What's also discouraging is realizing how much I still live for myself. Even after two years since accepting God's grace for me I am still doing and saying things that would make people like me more. Haven't I improved at all? Right now, not that I can see or hear or touch.

How obsessed I am about my own improvement! Of course that's not the point of the Gospel. I'm too concerned with how God's grace will change me and make me better, transform me into ALICIA 2.0 or something like that, rather than being concerned with devotion. Or compassion, servitude, or love... surrendering to the Holy Spirit's leading to further God's name and kingdom and glory.

I'll be working on that.