I know that sin is easy. Righteousness isn't. Things worth having aren't easy to get. I feel like some philosopher may have said those words a thousand years ago, & they haven't lost their pertinence in today's world. Sin is what I run to when I am struggling, when I am bored, when I am lukewarm towards God or when I am hating Him & I want to give Him a nice punch in the face. When I want to shock Him a little. That's a lot of sinful opportunity. Not only that, some sins do not take me long to get riled up about. Like pornography or (dare I say it?) masturbation. Who knew of a lady who struggled with both of those? I used to think that because I'm a female that this desire - that began when I was in middle school - wouldn't last long, because aren't all women crockpots when it comes to sex? But now I find that what becomes habit over the years also comes more quickly. I've found that I'm actually not a typical crockpot but rather a microwave, & what enemy of God's wouldn't love that? It's not only with sexual sin, either.
I fling myself into laziness whenever I'm in doubt, or television & music when I'm bored, or approval from the masses when I'm unsatisfied. Aren't all of these things sin when they don't glorify the Lord? I am quick to sin but slow to glorify God when I'm not filled with the Spirit. I try & try to will myself out of it but again & again, I inevitably fail. Trying to live up to Law on my own is fruitless, like Paul says in his letter to the Romans:
"For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do..." Ch. 8:3
I think that every blatant encounter with sin is a harsh reminder that naturally I cannot do what would glorify God. I must call on the Spirit to live a life of peace, a life that isn't hostile to God:
"For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. For the mind that is set on the flesh is hostile to God, for it does not submit to God's law; indeed it cannot." Ch. 8:6-7
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