I wish everyone I knew would stop getting engaged. There - I said it. There have been a handful of engagements that I can think of just off the top of my head, just from the summer!
My scope of friends who were in that 'single & happy ' crowd is dwindling, and it's dwindling fast. Some thoughts... it's so hard to be content being single when 1) guys you've liked for a good year but never really told them decide to match up with someone else out of the blue, 2) everytime you log into facebook there's a new, cartoon heart letting you know that yet again, a dear friend has found their soul-mate, 3) you keep seeing more and more photos of engagement rings you hadn't known about a week ago, etc. Lately this week, being home, with a family that's barely home, there's been huge opportunities to become a second mother - whether is cleaning, cooking, organizing, or keeping the household in order. My wife/mother mode has been turned on high these past days and I don't know why. I certainly doesn't help that more and more great friends of mine are getting into relationships, getting engaged, getting married (there have been three weddings in the past two months alone) and having babies... granted I do not want children now, I don't want to get married or engaged... but I do want a relationship. What girl doesn't? And of course as I type this I'm convicted that perhaps, God does not want me in a relationship. And even as I type, again I am convicted of the silliness of my problem and how really, my focus is too worldly to be a follower of Christ. How to fix it?
- Alicia
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I completely understand!! Too bad we can't really put in a request for the pairing up to stop. Or be sincerely happy about it at all times - but that's too much to ask as humans. I wish I could say it gets better, but I would be lying....it just goes in what I like to call "cycles of googly eyes."
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